Anxiety - Possible broken noses and the start of camp.

First if you haven't seen my facebook status, yesterday Ari running through the kitchen fell flat on his face. FLAT onto the tile floor. HARD. Mom was in the kitchen, I was downstairs getting ready as I was to leave to videotape a wedding in an hour. I heard the boom and I heard the scream and I was upstairs in less then a second. Blood. Bloody nose that kept bleeding and bleeding. I had blood on my clothes, down my arms on my face and in my hair. I tried to soothe him and stop the bleeding but he was freaked and didn't want his face touched. Then I argued with my mom who insisted he needed to lie back for the bloody nose while I insisted he needed to sit up so that the blood didn't rush down into his throat. I remember yelling at her to go get Rob who was loading up for the wedding. The minute he walked in I crashed. Total panic attack. Shaking, hyperventilating and freaking out. I was totally not the picture of cool and he took over. Once I calmed down I was able to get hold of Ari, get him into the living room and put on Wall E.

He had calmed down but his lip and nose were swollen. His nose had stopped bleeding. We Sat in the couch putting ice packs on his nose and letting him suck on as many ice pops as he wanted (which did wonders for reducing the swelling in his mouth. No cuts. His nose swelling prevented us from seeing if it was broken. I honestly don't think it is but I'm no doctor. I read online that it can't be really diagnosed until the swelling subsides and that I need only worry if the bleeding doesn't stop, he can't seem to breathe through his nose or it is obviously crooked. By the end of the movie all was right in the world to Ari. Yes, his nose was swollen (top part, not the tip) but he didn't have a care in the world. And he was very good at putting the ice on it. So good in fact that this morning although it was still swollen, it wasn't so much so and the bruising was really minimal.

Beyond that Ari started camp today. Rob dropped him off and I'm going to pick him up. It’s the first time he has ever been in an all day thing and I have to say, I'm terribly anxious about it. You ever get so nervous that you feel chest pain? It’s like your heart actually hurts. That’s me right now. I’m worried that he won’t enjoy himself, or that he will feel abandoned. Rob called me when he dropped him off. He’s never been to the camp himself so both Rob and Ari got to see it for the first time. Rob said that when they went into the room, he was a bit scared. He was clingy to Rob and unsure of himself. But he warmed up to it and even said Goodbye to Rob without issue. Rob liked the place which is good as Rob’s so damn particular with things. So I sit here in anticipation of picking him up.

This is also the first time he’s had to eat lunch. This is another of my anxious points. Ari is a bit spoiled by the grandmother’s when it comes to lunch. He always has hot meals and most time, he’s fed. He’s terribly lazy when having to feed himself anything except waffles so I know he’s basically spoon fed most of the time. So now he has to feed himself. Beyond that, he’s not one for sandwiches or cold food with the exception of peanut butter, which of course isn’t allowed. So I worry that he’s going to be very hungry.

I can’t wait to see what he thinks of it.

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